When I was young ( i mean - when i was in school ) I do things i like to do, i dreamt, enjoy life... i have nothing to worry, when i fail to achieve something, i will keep trying- at that time nothing is impossible. I am always positive - no matter what.
Time have change... i have change too. I did achieved one of my dream - to work in tourism industry. I went for an interview and succeed without "cable". That was my first work interview ( i was accepted to work at Ironman because of my track record so there was no interview - it was a direct offer)
But now... I can't describe my feeling.. feel like a "hantu raya - without tuan"(nuwal did said this). When i was at state office - KL / Selangor even officer keep going, pasal bos jangan cakap la... I survived.
TAPI BILA I KAT RESEARCH DAH LARAT NAK FIKIR FASAL POSITIF THING HIDUP TETAP KEPAMMMMMMMMMMMMMMMMMM. TAK ADA APA YANG DAPAT MEMBANTU. HATI DAH JADI BATU..... KEPALA BENGONG JANGAN CAKAP LA..... TAK MEMBINA MINDA LANGSUNG.... SANGAT KEPAM OTAK DAH TAK BERKEMBANG........WORST. YOU JUST IMAGINE... EVERY MORNING YOU GO TO THE OFFICE WITHOUT CLEAR DIRECTION IN WORK. WHAT KIND OF LIFE DO I HAVE NOW. MY SUPERIOR COME AND GO, NO BODY THINK ABOUT MY WORK... APATAH LAGI NAK FIKIRKAN PASAL SAYA... RAKAN SEKERJA JUGA MUNGKIN TAK FAHAM APA YANG SAYA LALUI...
NOW... DO I NEED TO ACT - BEING SELFISH OR BERKHIDMAT UNTUK NEGARA TANPA JASAMU DI KENANG....
Woo, young lady, you can always do something about it. For example go direct to your big boss, say that you need a new environment ( don't forget to show him prestasi kerja you). And tell him, you can do better if you're given A NEW ENVIRONMENT!!
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